Being an adult is hard. That's a fact. When you're younger you look up to adults and you get excited about being one when you grow up. ....But now that I'm there....I'm starting to realize how hard it really is.
When you're a kid you have rules supplied by your parents that you follow willingly (well...if you're a good kid)....now that I'm older I'm realizing that I have to start thinking for myself. I make the rules now. It's up to me to make sure I stay out of trouble, behave like a competent member of society, and uphold my christian values. No one is making me do it. Perhaps, It would be easier if they were, because of how much of a pacifist I am. You tell me to do something and convince me it's the right thing....and I'll stick to it...usually with no questions asked. That's just how I am. I'm compliant.
Now that I'm an adult I'm realizing that...as easy as it would be to continue on that path of following humanly orders. The hard road is to actually consult with God myself on what He wants for me and stand my ground on the way in which I feel He leads. That's hard for me...it's so much easier to just get advice from people and follow it. Wise advice is awesome and I welcome it. But I need to learn that it's ok when my personal word from God is different from what others might think I should be doing.
I am excited to see what God will do as I totally commit all my decisions to Him.
I pray...He leads...I follow. As it should be.