Lyrics.

I got accepted into the Disney College Program at Disney Land in California! Now I have a decision to make. FL or CA?

Whether or not I like a song usually depends on whether or not I connect with the lyrics in someway. I love lyrics. I get pretty darn impatient with songs that have really long intros because I love the lyrics so much. I totally think in song lyrics and movie quotes. So when I was trying to put into words how I am feeling about getting accepted into both Disney World and Disney Land College Programs...these words came to mind from the musical Wicked:

That's why I couldn't be happier
No, I couldn't be happier
Though it is, I admit
The tiniest bit
Unlike I anticipated
But I couldn't be happier
Simply couldn't be happier
(spoken) Well - not "simply":
(sung) 'Cause getting your dreams
It's strange, but it seems
A little - well - complicated
There's a kind of a sort of : cost
There's a couple of things get: lost
There are bridges you cross
You didn't know you crossed
Until you've crossed
And if that joy, that thrill
Doesn't thrill you like you think it will
Still -
With this perfect finale
The cheers and ballyhoo
Who
Wouldn't be happier?
So I couldn't be happier
Because happy is what happens
When all your dreams come true
Well, isn't it?
Happy is what happens
When your dreams come true!

-Glenda the "Good" Witch

It's really interesting how this has all hit me. My dreams have come true...I should be bouncing on the walls with excitement, right!? I'm learning that dreams are pretty scary once they become reality...that's when you have to think about all the little details like money and time! Either way I'm going to miss thanksgiving and Christmas with my family. Either way I'm missing out on priceless time with my nephew, my pets (especially my dog, Molly, she's getting pretty old), and my family. Either way I'm moving out and who knows if I'll live at home again. Either way I'm becoming an adult! Just as the song says "'...Getting your dreams, It's strange, but it seems, A little - well - complicated. There's a kind of a sort of : cost,There's a couple of things get: lost"

Yesterday I was leaning towards Disney Land. Today I'm leaning towards Disney World. There are pros and cons to both. Ultimately I need to spend time praying and asking God what HE wants me to do. For all I know HE might not even want me to go to either one. I need direction...I've always struggled with praying for things...perhaps this is a great opportunity for me to conquer that.

There are 20 days until I graduate. Yay!!!!!!

I'm doing my Senior Seminar Presentation on Monday! Ahhhh! I keep going back and forth between being crazy nervous and being really calm about the whole thing. I just want to get it over with! I've been freaking out about this for about a year...I can't believe it's finally here! Yikes!

Prickly

I graduate in 23 days. I love that. Really I just love that this whole stressful time will be finished. It's making me find fault with everything and everybody...it's not the Jenny we all know and love. I just need some alone time lately just to de-stress. Soon the stress will be over...I just hope I don't go too insane before it does.

BTW...Guess what!?
I got accepted into the Disney College Program at Walt Disney World in Orlando, FL! Heck yea!
That's pretty freaking sweet! I'm still waiting on Disneyland in CA (my preference). But either way I suppose I'll be working for Disney in the fall. You would think I'd be crazy excited right? I'm actually seriously nervous and scared of the commitment I'm about to enter. But I'm sure I'll do great and love it.
I think I just have random commitment issues sometimes...anything long term scares me. Which is why I dislike committing to long term projects...I like short term goals. They are so much less scary and do-able. I suppose that's just my personality...maybe I don't believe in myself enough or something...who knows.

In other news...


I got my cap and gown!! Yay!

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Check this out...My brother's band, Stellate, is in AP magazine!! He's the second one from the left. I'm so freaking proud! I carry the pages around with me everywhere I go.


ALSO... A friend of mine, Ashley Griffin, is a graduating art major and I'm in her art exhibit this weekend at my college (sadly I can't be there)! She took photographs of a bunch of people with a creative item that defines them. (I took a picture with the t-shirt quilt that I made this past summer.) She made the person black and white and bumped up the contrast of the item. It looks pretty awesome...I'm so proud of her! Here's one of the invitations:


My photo of the invitation is pretty crappy...but you get the idea!


I also finished my senior seminar paper...but I don't have a nifty photo for that yet.

Responsibility.

My mom works at a day care teaching two year olds. The character quality that they are learning for this month is "responsible". Last month my mom and I were chatting on the phone and we were trying to come up with a simplified definition of the word "responsible". Here's what we came up with...

Responsible: Doing what I know I should do, even when I don't want too.

Pretty good, eh? I think it pretty much sums it up. In my case...I need to be responsible as I enter the last few weeks of the semester so that I can get all my work done. I am having to do what I know I should do...homework...even when I don't want too.

My current responsibilities include:

• Genetics
• Population Community Ecology
• Senior Seminar Project
  
• Decorative and Wearable Arts (including various craft projects)
  
• Senior Bonner Internship in the Lifeworks office
  
• among various other long term responsibilities to myself, my family, my friends, and God.

Things I have to do before I can graduate (in no particular order):

• Correct Population Community Ecology (PCE) Paper
• Write a second PCE Paper
• Write the remaining reading reports for PCE
• Two more tests and finals in PCE
  
• Finish Senior Seminar Experiment
• Finish Senior Seminar Short Film
  
• Write Senior Seminar Paper
• Senior Seminar presentation
• Senior Seminar poster
  
• Two more tests and finals in Genetics
  
• Make a purse for Decorative and Wearable Arts (DWA)
  
• Refurbish an old purse for DWA
  
• Plan a tree planting for earth day for Lifeworks
  
• Finish the senior bonner handbook for the senior class
• Bonner Banquet presentation

Am I forgetting anything? Yikes....so much to do...only 45 days to do it in!

I'm feeling pretty ok about it all today...we'll see how I feel tomorrow though.


Here's a much happier list....

Things I'd rather be doing:

• Spending time with friends that I won't always have around :(
• Hanging out with Megan Anderson!
  
• Spending time with aquaintances I always meant to hang out with more
• Cleaning and organizing my room (seriously lol)
• Making sure everyone I know here at Mars Hill knows how much they've meant to me
• Enjoying my last weeks as a college student
• Spending time with my nephew
• Reading
• Watching Full House
• Making cards for all the friends I'll miss terribly
• Enjoying spring
• Going to Looking Glass Falls and Sliding Rock one last time!
• Being silly
• Appreciating/encouraging/building up my friends
  

All of this is kinda on hold until further notice. Unfortunately some things are time sensative like once I do have time...it will be too late. I just hope I can get enough quality time in with all the important people in between all the work I have to do.

Oh how I love my list making... :)